The continuous statement of my church is “Never place a period where God has placed a comma”. I think a part of me felt He had placed a period in my spiritual journey. As embarrassed as I am to admit it, today was my first visit to church in a loooonng time. Matt and I had a multitude of excuses as to why we could not fit church into our busy schedules. While we were making excuses, the enemy grew more and more satisfied with himself as the weeks of separation from our church community turned to months. I’m surprised it took me so long to see it clearly, but today the realization washed over me until I couldn’t keep the tears inside. I am embarrassed and ashamed that the enemy had such power of me.
Lately He has given me some strong signals that He wants to be closer to me. Closer than ever before. In response to these signals, I’ve started to meditate in His word every morning. It’s amazing how this small step has brought me closer to Him, and more aware of His presence in my life. He. Is. Everywhere.
Out of nowhere, an acquaintance from church began e-mailing me, just “checking in”. Although I would consider us merely acquaintances, we began discussing my pull towards a greater relationship with Him. She was so encouraging to me. I thank her for being a tool in building our relationship. It was then I knew I needed to return to church regularly. My heart was literally aching for it.
As soon as we walked into church, I felt that familiar warmth and love flow through me. I even heard some women say out loud “They’re back!” I felt like a mini-celebrity, with my loving church members hugging me, looking me in the eyes, and telling me how glad they were to see me. As ashamed as I felt for not attending for such a long while, this feeling instantly vanished in the warmth of many hugs. I am so blessed!
This was one of many attacks I am battling right now, but with His strength I will make the enemy wish he never messed with me. I pray everyone has a church community like Matt and I do. God is good. He is everything.